Ch. 243 - My life experience doubts

Looking at this room, for some reason, a sad feeling suddenly crept into my heart. The room was so empty, I wanted to cry. There wasn't even a bed in the bedroom. It was like an abandoned house. I didn't even have a place to sit.

 I don't know what Zhao Mingkun is thinking.  At this moment, it is already dark, the street lights outside the house are on, and the kitchens of every household have lit up. It is time for dinner. I turned on the kitchen light and started gargling with cold water. The cold water touched the wound, and I grinned miserably in pain.

 It seems that until my wound heals, I can only eat liquid food. Fortunately, there is a refrigerator in the kitchen. He opened the refrigerator and found only a few tomatoes and cucumbers in it. Then, a few buns, frozen hard.

 Looking at the cabinet, there is no oil, salt, sauce, or vinegar. It appears that this kitchen is furnished. But thinking about it, can a woman like Zhao Mingkun really know how to cook? I have reservations about this.

Just as he was thinking about how to fill his stomach, he heard movement outside the door, and Zhao Mingkun came back.

Going out, just as I wanted to say hello to Zhao Mingkun, I saw Zhao Mingkun's face full of anger. For some unknown reason, Zhao Mingkun first said, "Turn off the lights."

"Huh?" I didn't respond for a while.

Zhao Mingkun repeated: "Turn off the lights."

Although he looked at Zhao Mingkun's serious look, although he didn't understand, he still turned off the light. Suddenly, the whole room became pitch black. Only the faint cold light from the refrigerator entered the room, casting a pale blue light curtain on the walls. Zhao Mingkun and I just stood awkwardly, very quiet.

I scratched my head and said, "What's with the light?"

Only then did Zhao Mingkun put the plastic bags in her hands on the ground, and then said to me, "Your escape career has just begun. If you want to be taken away in handcuffs without sleeping, you will have to learn to adapt in the future. There's a lot more. Remember the first rule and never leave your mark. "

Having said that, Zhao Mingkun took out a cloth from the inner lining pocket, wiped the switch and the refrigerator door for a while, and then put the cloth back in his pocket: "Second point, never turn on the light. The light will show where we are. Do you understand? "

I shrugged and said, "No need to fuss, we just arrived."

Zhao Mingkun took out the contents of the bag and said, "Seven years have passed, and I'm still outside. You probably know how many people want to arrest me. But you also know that they can't even catch a glimpse of my shadow. "

I frowned and looked at Zhao Mingkun. At the same time, I also understood why there was nothing in this house. Whenever you want to buy something, it is inevitable that you will have to have a relationship with the seller. Especially in a store with a small daily transaction volume, such as furniture, the seller must have a record. In order not to leave a record, you can only not buy.

But such a life is too cautious and too restrictive.

Zhao Mingkun was still busy, so I asked, "Isn't this kind of life tiring?"

Hearing my words, Zhao Mingkun stopped her movements without turning her head said, "I'm tired, but if l don't live like this, will I still be alive?

To live is to suffer. I have heard people say that there is a certain amount of suffering and blessings in human life. But when will the suffering we have to suffer end? "

She looked back at me as if she was looking for an answer. It's just that I'm seven or eight years younger than her, so I really can't answer her question. I can only sigh and say, "Maybe some people are here to atone for their sins. To live is to suffer. "

"To live is to suffer, but I don't have the courage to die." Zhao Mingkun took out a bottle and said to me, "Tell me how pitiful we are. Come on, open your mouth. "

I didn't know what to say, so I opened my mouth consciously.

A cool liquid sprayed into my mouth with a medicinal smell.

I warmed my heart and said, "I didn't expect you to buy medicine for me, so be careful."

Zhao Mingkun took out two cups of porridge from another bag, handed me one, and said, "No, dinner."

"Do you eat this at night?" I stated.

Zhao Mingkun was silent, suddenly smiled, and said to me: "Yes, as a woman, maintaining good health is our top priority at any time. However, sometimes it's ridiculous to think about it. You say, "Do I still have any chance in my life to fall in love and be a bride?"

I waved my hand and shrugged: "Let's face it, sister, you still have time to think about this."

Zhao Mingkun stretched out a finger, hooked it, and her tongue slowly licked her upper lip, grabbed her neckline with one hand, and slowly pulled it down. The lights in the room were turned off, and only the street lights outside the window were on. A little light came in, making Zhao Mingkun look a little hazy, but it also perfectly outlined her figure.

I took a mouthful of porridge and it was cold. I know that this is the cold porridge that Zhao Mingkun specially bought, and it will not irritate the wound.

I said, "Don't use a set. I was beaten last time. I have to ask my parents what to say this time. "

Hearing my words, Zhao Mingkun pulled up her collar, sat on the ground casually, and said slowly, "Have you gotten smarter?"

I also sat down and said, "Tell me how much you know about my parents."

Zhao Mingkun said, "Since you've made up your mind, I'm not someone who inks anything. Actually, I don't know much about you. Do you know about your parents? Can you tell me what you know first?

I put the porridge on the ground and said, as I recalled, "When I was very young, I was thrown at the gate of Qingcheng Prison. There was only one note with me. My mother wrote it, "she said." My father was a prisoner in Qingcheng, and she couldn't wait for my father to go out, so she threw me at the door.  "

Zhao Mingkun didn't speak, just drank cold porridge.

I continued: "It's ridiculous. The warden checks the DNA of all male criminals, and my father was not among them. They all said my mother was an idiot who couldn't even remember which prison her husband was imprisoned in. You know our DNA too. The library is not perfect; how can you find one person among so many people in our country..."

Speaking of which, I suddenly feel helpless.

When it came to my mind, after a pause, I continued: "My mother said that if I couldn't wait for my father, my father must have committed some serious crime. Most likely, he is dead. I know that I was actually abandoned, but that's how people are.  I also want to ask my mother what I did wrong to be abandoned. "

I felt my body trembling slightly, trying to suppress the anger, helplessness, and sadness in my heart, and said, "I really want to ask them, if they can't fulfil their parental responsibilities, why would they give birth to me?" ..if you decide to have a baby, why not?

For a moment, the feelings that had accumulated in my heart for many years finally burst out. Although I repressed my feelings, my tears were like a flood. Suddenly, my nose and tears came down. There are a lot of them.Like a helpless child, unable to control himself.

I have never said these words in front of others, but in front of Zhao Mingkun, it seems that there are no more secrets to speak of.

Zhao Mingkun took out a few tissues from her pocket and handed them to me. She said, "What if I say your parents are not criminals at all?"

I wiped my tears and said, "What do you mean?"

Zhao Mingkun watched me wipe my nose and tears, then put the tissue in a plastic bag, and said, "Have you ever thought about it? It's so weird. What kind of confused mother is she? to forget  the name of the prison where her husband and the father of her children is.  Family will be notified even if the prisoner is to be moved. You grew up in prison, you know that. "

I nodded, pulled my hair with my hand, and said, "Yes, when the prisoner is transferred, the family will definitely be notified. Unless, this person has no family. You mean, it's not that my mother remembered it wrong. "

Zhao Mingkun took a mouthful of porridge and said, "I don't know what happened at the time. Through my investigation, I found out that your parents were not criminals at all. Although I don't know the reason, if the identities of your parents were found out, they would definitely investigate, but I'm afraid the truth is not so simple. "

My curiosity made me wonder about my background and what happened in the first place.

I said, "Ignorance is good sometimes, the truth is dark, but it is also true. Who are my parents? If they are not criminals, where have they been for twenty years and why have they never come to see me? Why twenty years later, they haven't found me yet? "

Zhao Mingkun was silent for a moment, then stood up: "You know, there are two kinds of people in this world who live in darkness, one is a criminal, and the other is after a criminal."

After listening to Zhao Mingkun's words, my mind became clearer, and then I said, "You mean, my parents are..."

Zhao Mingkun nodded and said, "Yes, if my investigation is correct, your parents should be police officers."

"Policemen?"

When I heard the answer that I had already thought of in my heart, I didn't know what to say for a while, so I said, "Undercover?"

(end of chapter)

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