Ch. 107 - Only Today Do I Know That I Am Me! 

"Success! Success! Sis, you've succeeded!"

Chi Shui expressed his deep shock at Chi Yueshan's epiphany.

It was one thing for Chi Yueshan to have an epiphany at that stormy charity performance where Lu Xing was the only audience member. 

He hadn't expected that this time, after getting involved with Lu Xing's affairs, she would actually have another epiphany!

Good, good, good.

So it's like this, is it?

Is Lu Xing some kind of Longchang? 

(TL: A reference to the place where the philosopher Wang Yangming achieved enlightenment. Calling someone a "Longchang" is a humorous way of saying they cause others to have epiphanies.)

But Chi Shui still suggested, 

"I think, you might as well cultivate your relationship with Grandpa and Grandma more, and have them put in a good word for you in front of brother-in-law."

"Cultivate the relationship first?"

Chi Yueshan sneered as she drove. The lights of the neon city outside the car window shone on her side profile, making her look exceptionally cool and indifferent.

"He can do so much for his grandpa and grandma, which means that's his reverse scale." 

(TL: A dragon's reverse scale; a weakness or sore spot that, when touched, causes a furious reaction.)

"If I were to cultivate a relationship with Grandpa and Grandma first without telling him, then when he comes to the hospital and sees me sitting next to them..."

Thinking of that terrifying scene, Chi Yueshan's heart pounded. Her voice was also exceptionally cold.

"Guess what would happen at that time? Would it be a happy family reunion or Mars hitting the Earth?"

So she had to tell Lu Xing about this as soon as possible. She hadn't deliberately set up the encounter with Grandma.

Otherwise, if Lu Xing found out about today's events from Grandma's mouth, he would definitely think she had ulterior motives.

Prejudice is a great mountain in people's hearts.

Lu Xing already didn't trust her. If he were to speculate on this matter according to his own ideas...

She wouldn't be able to explain it even with eighty mouths!

Chi Shui scratched his head, his eyes revealing a clear and stupid look. 

"Oh man, you and brother-in-law together have eight hundred schemes. Why do you both think so much?"

"You guys make me look so dumb!"

In Chi Yueshan's mind, the medical expenses written in black and white on the medical record appeared again. She couldn't smile at all, her mood was low.

"If he didn't think a little more, he would have been eaten until not even bone dregs were left."

All of Lu Xing's previous abnormalities were now exceptionally clear in Chi Yueshan's mind.

Lu Xing wasn't actually that cold and heartless.

He was avoiding, avoiding the possibility of developing feelings for his clients, avoiding his own heart's movements, and also avoiding the client's heart's movements.

"How is that possible?"

Chi Yueshan's eyes were full of complexity.

How could that be?

Chi Yueshan herself was an opera singer.

Sometimes she herself would be so immersed in the play that she would cry her heart out and be unable to get out of it.

If the actor themselves can't get immersed, how can that kind of true feeling be performed? But if they really get immersed, how can they not be moved?

Then what about Lu Xing?

His rationality was enough to suppress all those palpitations and feelings.

But a person is like a spring. If you press it to the bottom indefinitely, it will only exceed its elastic limit and the spring will completely collapse!

Chi Yueshan's heart ached as she thought. That day, Lu Xing had said that personality determines fate.

It really is that personality determines fate.

The similarities between her personality and Lu Xing's made her completely understand some of Lu Xing's thoughts.

Is this a good thing, or a bad thing?

"Sis, are you planning to tell brother-in-law directly about today's events? And after that, are you going to confess to him?" 

Chi Shui's head was about to explode. He now deeply felt that this was a sin.

Confess?

Chi Yueshan laughed in a low voice and said silently.

"If I'm not mistaken, this should be the word Lu Xing hates the most."

Chi Shui scratched his head and gave her a thumbs-up.

"You analysis-sis, you're really powerful. Your little brother worships you!"

"Get lost."

Chi Yueshan rolled her eyes at Chi Shui.

Chi Shui shrank his neck. "Then if you don't say it first, what if someone gets there before you?"

"They won't."

Chi Yueshan parked the car at the agreed-upon location with Lu Xing, was silent for a moment, and then continued.

"With his personality, his attitude towards anyone's confession is the same."

Lu Xing doesn't believe in love.

This is the saddest part.

Chi Yueshan thought of Lu Xing asking her about her occupational disease in the rehabilitation room that day, lowered her head, and murmured to herself.

"So rational..."

Lu Xing would rather call his palpitations an occupational disease.

It's nothing for an actor to deceive the audience. To deceive oneself is to achieve perfection.

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Ten minutes, half an hour, an hour...

Chi Yueshan sat on the park bench and waited second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour.

The cold wind blew on her body. Her body was trembling, but her mind was becoming clearer and clearer. 

The details of her past interactions with Lu Xing kept replaying in her mind.

Da da da–

The sound of footsteps came from not far away. Chi Yueshan's eyes instantly turned red, and tears dripped down.

She didn't know what she was crying about. Maybe it was heartache for Lu Xing's past, maybe it was regret that the two of them had had a chance, maybe it was both.

This was the scene Lu Xing saw when he saw Chi Yueshan.

Under the dim yellow light, Chi Yueshan's thin figure was stretched very long. The cold wind blew through her long hair, and her small, cold, white face was trembling.

"What are you crying about?"

Lu Xing was taken aback for a moment. He had thought Chi Yueshan would curse at him menacingly. He hadn't expected this scene.

"Don't cry. Didn't you say before that you love opera? Didn't this just give you a huge traffic portal? You should be happy."

Chi Yueshan choked for a moment, tears streaming down her bright eyes. She looked up, her watery eyes staring at Lu Xing as she said, 

"I met Grandpa and Grandma."

Boom!

One sentence, and Lu Xing's head went blank.

The faint smile on his lips instantly retracted. Like a stressed little animal, his eyes were filled with undisguised indifference. "Who let you..."

"Can you listen to me properly?" Chi Yueshan gently pinched the corner of his shirt.

Lu Xing brushed her hand away without hesitation, then sat on the other end of the bench and said coldly.

"Go on."

Chi Yueshan thought, had Lu Xing's clients ever seen him like this? Perhaps, even Grandpa and Grandma had never seen Lu Xing like this.

An indescribable feeling filled Chi Yueshan's heart, both painful and happy. Pained by Lu Xing's indifference, happy that she had discovered another side of him.

Six minutes later

After listening to Chi Yueshan's narration, Lu Xing fell into a long silence.

Life is indeed full of disappointments.

But...

Lu Xing hadn't expected that Chi Yueshan had even helped him cover up his lie.

Lu Xing glanced at Chi Yueshan's pale little face, took off his own coat, and draped it over her shoulders, saying with rare sincerity.

"Thank you."

Because of Chi Yueshan's special status, what she said was quite credible.

Before, Grandpa and Grandma had also asked him about his novel writing, and he had always fooled them.

One time, Grandpa had really cried, thinking that Lu Xing was doing some shady things to make money to treat his illness, and then insisted on terminating the treatment.

That time, Lu Xing had gotten through it by relying on a photoshopped payment slip.

Later, Lu Xing would occasionally ask a professional to photoshop some pictures for him to show to his grandparents.

But these fake things were ultimately not as effective as Chi Yueshan's words.

From today on, Grandpa and Grandma should completely dispel this doubt.

After all, as a popular opera actress, Chi Yueshan had no need to lie for a student, and the two of them were completely unrelated.

"It's nothing. Grandma also pulled me up. I want Grandpa and Grandma to be at ease."

Chi Yueshan pulled the coat on her shoulders tighter. After crying, her whole body felt broken, but her mood at this moment was a little better. 

She had indeed made the right move this time.

If she had really listened to Chi Shui's words and gone to cultivate a relationship with Grandpa and Grandma first, then if Lu Xing had caught her, it would have been the end of the world!

Lu Xing paused for a moment. "What were you doing on the rooftop? Were you really going to jump?"

Chi Yueshan gave Lu Xing a sideways glance and bit her lip with grievance. 

"My waist hurt so much, and you still pissed me off. I only wanted to show that video to you! I went to the rooftop to cool off and, by the way, listen to the work arrangements the director gave me."

Lu Xing choked.

Alright.

So she was here to settle accounts.

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